Who Am I?

Hello darling, it's been so long. How have you been? Do you know me, you ask? But of course you do! It breaks my heart that I have to remind you, how you loved me and placed me above everyone else, how you looked for every possible chance to be with me, how you spent your days and nights in my arms. Why else would I be speaking to you today, when you don't even remember me?

It only seems like yesterday that we met, hours after you were born. Years passed by, and we became inseparable. You'd be ready with endless excuses to see me, irrespective of where you were. Your parents never understood why you enjoyed being with me, but they let us be. For some reason, they had faith in me, and they knew I'd keep you happy, which I always did. I'd sneak into your classrooms and meeting rooms to pay you a visit. Neither your teachers nor your bosses liked me, and your better half was always jealous of me, but you never cared! I gave you company both in your good times and bad - when you went for picnics with your family, after you finally received your first job offer, when you were sad about leaving college, when you were travelling places, when you were tolerating a horrible movie, when you were tired after a hard day's work, or when you were sick. In some of our meetings, I'd take you to mysterious places with unknown faces, and you'd love those journeys. Oh, how I miss those days!

Sweetheart, I know I've been mischievous now and then, but I never meant to hurt you. I didn't realize that hide-and-seek with me would torment you so much, when you always enjoyed the game with your friends. I was just being playful, I swear! At times, I'd arrive late to see you, but only when you reeked of coffee, which I cannot stand. Then, there were days when I lured you into spending more time with me, and you ended up being late for work. Yet, that was only when I thought you really needed to be with me! Those mysterious journeys I accompanied you on, might have been scary at times, though my part was only to take you there. The demons belonged to you, and I'm sorry I couldn't take them away. Maybe I wronged you with my childish misconduct, and that's why we aren't together anymore.

Too many barriers stand between us today - barriers made of anger, tension, anxiety, and stress. I can no longer hold your hand, let alone embrace you like I used to. This is but a last attempt of mine to bring you back to me. I want you in my arms, but not when it is too late, and your body is cold and lifeless. Because then, even though you will be with me forever, I will not feel the warmth of your presence or hear the sound of your heartbeat. My love, I know you can still hear me. Please, darling. Please come back to me.